Original intent

I'm thinking I should try to keep this a bit more professional. The CCS JobBook has a spot for website and I was thinking about this place. How professional looking is a personal blog? I guess it depends on how I take care of it. More images. More design. I think I can do that and lay off the 12 year old girl rants.

Ready go!

Easier better faster just as strong

I did my 2nd and 1/2 AutoCross yesterday in Ohio. It was pretty good. A friend, Geof, was with me who gave good feedback. Also a fellow Superior Region SCCA member was around and said he'd give me his old STi exhaust for free! Now I won't have to reset me inner ear every time I drive the highways.

I wasn't doing as well as I wanted to, I got a bit squirrely on a corner but I had a cone-free day. Luckily I remembered to mark myself as a novice and I was also included in that class too. Here is what is known as "bench racing." It's where you try and talk yourself up as a better driver and it involves a lot of "seconds" "tenths" tossed around. Biggest thing to remember, I HAD CRAPPY ALL-SEASON TIRES ON. For those who don't know, tires are the most important part of driving, in any way. Whether it's puttering around town or screaming around a chicane.

My I was 3/4 in my novice class, 7/10 in my novice class, 9/11 in my overall class, and 79/85 in the entire race. So not that impressive looking. But this was my 3rd time around any type of course with crappy tires. And I'm sticking to that. It didn't help my ego when the announcer said "I don't want to sell him short but that's a 200hp, turbo charged with AWD." Uhh...no. I have the RS not the WRX. I'm not that bad.

Hopefully pictures are to come.

Harder better faster stronger

Remember the 16th? He we go again. This time I'm only using Daft Punk to keep me going rather than The Daft and caffeine. You can tell because this has some logical order and is only a single paragraph. It's working well so I thought I'd let my digital audience in on it.

On a continued high note, I did a few pages in my sketchbook that I'm happy with. Huzzah.

Wow

My God do I love Moka cafè…

…and caffeine.

Uh oh

Here we go again (see July 14)... I need to sketch and get better. That is all.

Eb and flow

One of my many themes of life is the classic yin/yang, black/white, ebb/flow, pos/neg...etc. As the last post may have illustrated, it wasn't a great day. In contrast, tonight I'm feeling good. I took one of those mind boggling naps where you fall asleep during the day and wake up in the dark and "you don't know what goddamn day it is"  (see Carlin at the 5:16 mark) I tried to sleep in my real bed but to no avail. I remembered I had a quarter of a paragraph written for a film essay due Thursday so I decided to pick that up. But it's a technical writing and doesn't hold my attention very well. So I found the last half of Scrubs season 7 that I missed completely.

OH! You should keep in mind that I have a cup and a half (with the other half still here next to me) of Italian style coffee. OH! And my nonna's biscotti. Mmm. Excellent with coffee of any brewery.

So my mind is a bit razzed. My roommate went to bed so I'm sitting in the mostly-dark room. I like these times. It feels like I'm closer to my own mind, like it's easier to think with fewer distractions around. Also like when there's a black-out and all the lights are out and you can hear better because your brain doesn't have to use the sense of sight.

I should be writing that paper but I'm doing well so I thought I'd take an unrequited break to tell you fine, interweb audience how good I'm feeling. So I think I'll put Daft Punk's Alive back on and jam away at this essay.

PS, I'm thinking a brighter color scheme to reflect my mood, eh?

Quietly freaking out

In an uncharacteristic mood swing given my class load(2), work schedule(none), season(summer), I'm having visions of not succeeding in life. Mostly involving school, drawing, ID. So what better thing to do about it than blog at 2:40 in the a.m. I've mentioned before that I'm not sketching as much as I should. It's a typical bad cycle. I don't think I'm that good at it and I don't want to look at them, so I don't do it. And by not sketching, I get worse. I'm signed up for a Nike studio: shoes. Shoes I feel are like cars. You can ruin the proportions easily and mess up the whole thing. I've squeezed out a little shoe here and there and promptly threw them in the trash.

This then makes me think about how this is parallel with the rest of my life. If it's too hard, do I just ignore it? Don't get me wrong, I like a challenge but it helps when I think I can win. The drawing part half of my concentration here at school. Obviously I don't suck at it since I'm beginning my third year here, but it gets quite discouraging when after every corner you see someone who is phenomenally better than you.

So I know what my strength is, the thought-process/idea. But drawing conveys those "grand ideas" I may have. My sterling personality and wit? Same thing, I need to show those attributes to a potential employer without being able to be there to explain.

None of these are new thoughts. I'd rather be in Lake Superior enjoying the giant waves that come this time of year with the high, warm winds. That it's kind of lonely here... But enough, time to end this depressio bloggio. I smell a camp fire but seeing as how I'm in Metro Detroit, it's actually a house burning down. Thanks D. I think I'll change the coloring of this for a while and then get back to working on my Type3 assignment.

The designer in me

I'm often unsatisfied with the color scheme of this page. I know I want it to look interesting and easy. So I've been using this color app site as a way to find good color combos. After w few minutes of this, I'm off to finish gluing my book together for a graphic design class.

Obvious Disregard

It's been a little over two months since the second post. I could use this place to my advantage and let people know what's going on. And if I kept up with this more often, people are more likely to check up on it.

So where do we stand as of today? I should be drawing more. I have little to no income with little to much spending. I stress out too much over my two classes. I love driving my car. I want to add so much more to my car (see above). I should be drawing more. The summer is half done. I'd rather be in the U.P. I should be drawing more. I still keep up with the design world via the glorious interweb. The weather isn't as bad as I had expected in Detroit for the summer. I should be drawing more. An

d I should be drawing more.

I'm still trying to learn Italian on my own volition. I pick up Rosetta Stone not as much as I should. I still want to visit. But maybe not just visit. Study, work, live? My few visits have been great and I wish I could go and not be a tourist. In fact, I think I do a lesson or tw

o after this is published.

In the meantime, here's a photo of my car.